vulnerable

i havent been much of a blogger aye?

yah..!

something happi.. :)

my aunt delivered..! a boy.. means.. i got a new cousin!

so its kinda busy at home now...

but he sure is a cutie...

moving on!

i feel kinda lifeless these days...

i dunno wat is making me like this soo frequently!

i guess its the effect of jobless-ness!

its such a bore at home.. i realli dunt have stuff to do.. and i dont have anyone to accompany me!

yah so result is me being bored and mad and crazy and HUNGRY!

i just figured out that ive become very vulnerable...emotionally i mean!

everytime anyone say even a little thing, my heart breaks!

yah.. its annoying and sadd!! :/

 and i dunno how to let the feelings out!

i hve the same thing to say everytime...

repeating the same thing tooo frequently cud make it meaningless! thts wat i thot...

soo i just try to stay without talking abt these stuff...

but then again! this makes me the moody and unhappy person!.

argh! ive become such a mess!

[pic from my tumblr!]

anyways.. bye bye for now..

cya soon!

the little aali! :)

its been sumtym I KNOW! 

i dunno the reason! ive been just a bit more attracted to tumblr these days!

anyways! here goes  post about my childhood! idea inspired by haiko.

I used to call “BOHTHAANI” for water!

I used to cry the whole night till morning!

I wanted to be a MONKEY when I grew up! (kiyavaigen molhuvegen adhi eii ves :P) a highly educated monkey! 

I called BOATHALHAA for boakibaa and cake! And apparently, one day there was my great grandmothers faathihaa at home, and while the kiyavaa meehun were having tea, I went up there and cried “mammaa dheboathalhaa dhee!” because I wanted both cake and boakibaa! hehe

When I was in kindergarten, I made jewellery from clay and actually put them INSIDE my ears pretending they were earrings!

I DIDN’T like to share! And one dayyy, mom bought a packet of sweets and gave to everyone and didn’t leave anything for me! That’s when I started liking to share! :P

When I used to say the shahaadhath before sleeping I refused to say Muhammad because it was my dad’s name! I used to tell mom that its bad to call dad’s name! id rather say bappa.. :P but mom made me understand! Hehe

I used to pray and make duas wishing for a sibling! (yeap! I wanted one sooo bad! I still doo)

When the prayer calls I used to start praying and my prayer would be over as soon as bangi is over! 

I used to say “BANKIYO” at banbukeyo!

When I first saw dad, I was scared of him and told grandma that mom had a scary beybe with us in the room!! :P (I saw dad after quite a while becox he was a boatu dhathuru kuraa meehaa back then)

ibu and I switched mothers sometimes! When maama was out and sometimes wen mom is out! :P so we kinda are siblings. Not born from same tummy but still! Same milk!  “yayyy”

when I went to a zoo, the only thing I was interested in was the MONKEYS! Not even the tigers and stuff! They were boring to me! :P (actually it turns out I still like monkeys! Like the rainbow monkey from KND, boots from dora and there are sum more too!)

I cried NOT to go on a horse ride! But I did go after a lot of crying though! :P

I fed a GIRAFFE!! YAAYYY!

I never liked plain milk, so mom tried all new things and she invented vanilla buhthashi which tasted like vanilla icecream! She added vanilla essence and color to the buhthashi! I still have it instead of milk.. becox I still hate plain milk! And its great! U shud try! More ice is better!

 more to come in another post! enuff for tunite! so enjoy! m off for now.. 

so all in all! life is good right now!

gonna miss ibu! :) cum bck soon brother! 

oki happy hols to all.. :)

 [pic from tumblr!! its just sooo cute!!)

a list

soo heres a post! 

about some things i wish were different in my life..

i know it isnt happening... 

but just remembered soo wud lyk to share wid u guys..

these are just some of them! not ALL! cox human wants are never ending right??

ok so here goes..!

I wish I got to grow up with my 6 months younger nephew!

because he is so awesome!
I wish my younger brother/sister was born!
because I always wanted a sibling and i know she was on her way but cudnt make it..
I wish I got better results.. :P
because I was expecting for higher grades.. :P
I wish me and mom lived alone.
because life is such a mess with all the people in the house right now..
I wish I earn for myself and could spend as much as I want ON FOOD!!
because I always crave for food and I want to eat!
I wish muuthi and I still lived next doors!
because I miss the stupid things we did together.
I wish I could fit ALL my stuff in my room. My teddy, my books, and everything!
because I miss everything and I have to keep all of them in another ISLAND right now!
I wish I could do a lot of shopping at once. 
because I love shopping!

 I wish ibu and I were siblings.

Like I said because he is AWESOME and it wud have been great if so!

[pic from somewhere out of my tumblr.. :)]

still on the pause!

yahhh.. soo my life again right!

same things guyss! its still on the pause...

how i met ur mother... and sleep! 

but im realli trying to get back on track with my sleep.. 

noo late nights!

oh and tonight went to a family gathering where i met a lot of relatives,

most of them i never knew even existed!! O_O

but all of them were realli nice and frndly!

it was fun and yummy food of cox..!!

soo had some quality time with dad after quiet a while..!!

now back home doing nothing but just writing some stuff.. 

and on my way to bedd!!

sooo this post is supposed to be shorter than the others i usually post.

BECOZ! this is my life blog and there is not very interesting stuff happening right now..

except the cliche'(s) happening in the house!

more updates about tht later!

soo for right now!

im gone... cya!

life goes on!

Soo.. nothing has changed much...

im duing pretty much the same things which ive been doing abt 3 months ago...

my sleeeppp!! argh.. i realli got to change my schedule...

i cnt sleep at night... even though im on bed and TRY to sleep i cnt go to sleep before 3.30 or 4 in the morning...

or if i cud actually fall asleep a bit early i wake up in the middle of the night...

this is happening since before ramazan this year!

and unfortunately as i am jobless and my classes are at night...

i dont have anything to do even if i wake up early.. so i end up on bed till afternoon! 

i starrvveee wen i wake up.. 

and ive got stupid cravings for junk food...

u will realise that even if u visit my tumblr. 

hehe..

ive got a sweet tooth now.. i want donuts, marshmallows and dont forget COKE!

even though i get bored most of the time... one thing i enjoy is watching how i met your mother!

yess... thats how i spend most of my time noww!!...

its awesome!

theres one more thing i do these days...

i take tiutions for my brother and his classmate...

two 9 year olds.. totally eats my head up!..

one thing i realised...

even though i dont have anything to do.. 

and even though im bored and im practically wasting a lot of my time duing NOTHING..

the world doesnt stop... 

everything is changing and i have to face everyday!!...

So... i have three words for all of u..

LIFE GOES ON!

and it doesnt care whether u are coming with it or not!

sooo just move on!

[pic from sumwhere of my tumblr..]

16th and 17th

So here i am again! 

there was noooo news from the ofyc thingy... 

bro told me there were above 100 applications.. soo no idea!

16th was our anniversary.. 1 year 1 month.. soo we celebrated a bit with a ferero chocolate drink.. luv u babe.. <3

The big thing that happened was moms b day...  It was 17th...

on 16th ge night, me ibu faizan and xef bought everything we need for a party...

balloons, cake, snow, party popper, chickn and parata and all other stuph...

hmm soo wen mom finished the shop at 11 me and xef went to pick her up..

and we went to the gaadiyaa thah kairi ah.. and there was this show and eythi balan thibefa dhen went to have cotton candy and jugo!.

after that on the way home.. we tried to pop the party popper but unfortunately faizan broke it and plan flop.... 

dhen 1 ves vanikoh geah dhevunee... dhiya iru paaaarrrrttyyyyyyy!!!! yayyyy.. she was very happi!

dhen cake falhaafa.. kaifa... snow fulhi mulhi thanashaa gayashaa angayashaa jahaafa! kukulhu kaigen kulhi vegen moyavegen..

hehehe..

and then xef and faizan left..

It was all mom ge bf ge plan soo special thanks to him.. :)

anddd laterrrr again on 17 ge night...

i bought tulips for mom and shop nimunu gadeega sent it to her...

she was EXtremelyyy happi!!..

so was i..

soo happi birthday mommmy!..

tht was all abt her b day!

dhen aneh hen maa bodu kameh nuvey.,.

will update u abt anything... :)

oh btw...!!

we are celebrating furaavaru's 3rd anniversary.. dunt forget to visit

http://furaavaruonline.com

 play games and win gifts.. :) 

enjoy!

[pic from my tumblr]

hei.. =)

oops! its been sumtym right!

oh welll... during these days.. so much has happened...

actualli i finishd my first semester exams... 

realli hoping they wud come out fine.. :)

ill be getting the results at somewhere arnd february or end of jan!

watvr.. just cnt wait to see them...

and theennnnn!!!

im trying to write this all of a sudden so all the stuph arent comin to mind.

but will update ltr if i miss anything... 

well... 

there were very very fun and memorable days tooo...

i had fun with sum of my gurlfwendss... went to shopping with them... had sum serious time with them too..

they are all soo special and i miss all of my frnds a lot..

about family!

well... better not talk abt it!

it havnt been this complicated ever...! 

the rent is increasing of this place and its getting less affordable..

sooo sis and ppl hav decided to shift to island which i dont like and i dont want to and i  cnt shift!

it has been the island which i hate the mosttt...

and i dont want to go becox i hate the place and the ppl there are such monsters... 

i know im not supposed to say this.. but cnt help cox i hvnt met a lot of nice ppl whu grew up there.

and i cant becox im studying. 

and i am so not gud at getting along with tht side of my family becox of lot of stuph...

well yah damnnn!!

now i hv two choices... 

either to shift with my dad...

or to find a place to liv with mom....

which means i have to get a job.. SOON

oh tht reminds me... ive applied for a job tuday! 

realli hope i get it...

of cox ill tell u guys abt how it goes in another post!

so lets just stop right here...

and wait for another post right??

cox this is getting very family complicated.. and its making me think!

sooo... for right now..

im outta here..!!!

GOOD NIGHT!


[pic from deviant art ge i dunno who]