its me.. again!

tadaa!!

finally... finally here i am after some time.

ok.. so what ive been mainly doing these days is watching movies and series and a very very very few internet!

and then i went for a job interview and was called for the second round..

went to the second round and tadaa ove been selected!

soo!! im gonna start working on this sunday!!

finally i will be very well occupied and less bored! insha allah!

otherwise in life, i have these new cravings for waffles and the "thihthimen corn". 

the spicy chicken one is goood!!

i actually crave for just anything.. ANYTHING!

missing muuthi loads and loads... shes gone off to lanka!

and also.. met ekko after a long timeee and had an awesome time...

and looking forward for a fun day again tomm with nathu and ekko.. :D

oh remember i told you i would extend the about me list... buuutt.. wen i try writing i actually dont remember all the facts at the same time.. soo i decided.. i wud include the facts in between my posts wen i remember...

soo.. sudden fun fact abt me..

# i get angry when i get too hungry.. i get soo angry i cud even cry and get mad at stupid stuff!!..

so u rather keep me well fed! :P

[pic from my tumblr... i dunno whose it is..]

sooo.. for now.. gudnight!

and have an awesome time...

will sure catch you guys latr.!!

realization!

Alrite. so here i am again..

tuday, during the afternoon, my aunt, uncle in law,

lil gurl cousin and the new born cousin flew off to the island..

of cox i didnt go because i DONT like the place at all.

but noww... i feel sooo lonely at home..

cox mom goes to work and im literally alone at home. 

but thanks to my guy he keeps me well accompanied thru internet, and phone.... 

Anyways

the loneliness made me realize something realli important,

it made me realize that ive been running away from some of the responsibilities i have,

that.. i am not having the courage to face the fact that its not only me who change,

and that no matter how old my parents get, even they change from day to day.

i forgot that they had their own life too, apart from me!

i realized that, now that i understand i have to giv them time to live their life.. cox all these days they've been living the life for me..

 soo ive started telling myself that i have my own responsibilities. 

firstly, keeping myself well organized, 

taking care of myself, and caring more about mom and dad. 

(not tht i dont care about them now... but i need to care for them more now)

its kinda a battle to give time to both of them equally since they are separated and live in two different places.

ive been planning on shifting with dad after some time... but who knows if we will live tomorrow right..? all i want to doo.. i got to start as soon as possible right?? 

soo ive decided im gonna start trying to give some more time to dad than i do now. 

and as for mom... im just giving her a chance to experience her lost teen life. 

i totally understand a teenagers situation, and for her its almost the same. 

So yah! go on mom... and experience the best days of life before its too late..

ill support you in watever decision you take!

oh well.. sooo all in all.. im just trying to improve..

be a better daughter... and a better friend...

cox i dont want to lose you guys... 

but for those of you who think i changed and im a bad person for that...

here me out!!

the truth is.. i grew up! 

i learnt tht you cant ALWAYS be happy... i accepted reality..

i have responsibilities...

it doesnt mean i hate any of you!... or that im foni.. or well.. i dont care if you think soo... 

but.. everyone changes right??

i guess this is the time for ME to finally stand up on my own feet!

you'll understand wen the right time for you comes... 

and at that time... i will have no problem with it cox ill totally understand!!

anywayyss! thnks you guys for listening to all the stuff i spill in here..!!!

have a gud nite.. :)

cheers

vulnerable

i havent been much of a blogger aye?

yah..!

something happi.. :)

my aunt delivered..! a boy.. means.. i got a new cousin!

so its kinda busy at home now...

but he sure is a cutie...

moving on!

i feel kinda lifeless these days...

i dunno wat is making me like this soo frequently!

i guess its the effect of jobless-ness!

its such a bore at home.. i realli dunt have stuff to do.. and i dont have anyone to accompany me!

yah so result is me being bored and mad and crazy and HUNGRY!

i just figured out that ive become very vulnerable...emotionally i mean!

everytime anyone say even a little thing, my heart breaks!

yah.. its annoying and sadd!! :/

 and i dunno how to let the feelings out!

i hve the same thing to say everytime...

repeating the same thing tooo frequently cud make it meaningless! thts wat i thot...

soo i just try to stay without talking abt these stuff...

but then again! this makes me the moody and unhappy person!.

argh! ive become such a mess!

[pic from my tumblr!]

anyways.. bye bye for now..

cya soon!

the little aali! :)

its been sumtym I KNOW! 

i dunno the reason! ive been just a bit more attracted to tumblr these days!

anyways! here goes  post about my childhood! idea inspired by haiko.

I used to call “BOHTHAANI” for water!

I used to cry the whole night till morning!

I wanted to be a MONKEY when I grew up! (kiyavaigen molhuvegen adhi eii ves :P) a highly educated monkey! 

I called BOATHALHAA for boakibaa and cake! And apparently, one day there was my great grandmothers faathihaa at home, and while the kiyavaa meehun were having tea, I went up there and cried “mammaa dheboathalhaa dhee!” because I wanted both cake and boakibaa! hehe

When I was in kindergarten, I made jewellery from clay and actually put them INSIDE my ears pretending they were earrings!

I DIDN’T like to share! And one dayyy, mom bought a packet of sweets and gave to everyone and didn’t leave anything for me! That’s when I started liking to share! :P

When I used to say the shahaadhath before sleeping I refused to say Muhammad because it was my dad’s name! I used to tell mom that its bad to call dad’s name! id rather say bappa.. :P but mom made me understand! Hehe

I used to pray and make duas wishing for a sibling! (yeap! I wanted one sooo bad! I still doo)

When the prayer calls I used to start praying and my prayer would be over as soon as bangi is over! 

I used to say “BANKIYO” at banbukeyo!

When I first saw dad, I was scared of him and told grandma that mom had a scary beybe with us in the room!! :P (I saw dad after quite a while becox he was a boatu dhathuru kuraa meehaa back then)

ibu and I switched mothers sometimes! When maama was out and sometimes wen mom is out! :P so we kinda are siblings. Not born from same tummy but still! Same milk!  “yayyy”

when I went to a zoo, the only thing I was interested in was the MONKEYS! Not even the tigers and stuff! They were boring to me! :P (actually it turns out I still like monkeys! Like the rainbow monkey from KND, boots from dora and there are sum more too!)

I cried NOT to go on a horse ride! But I did go after a lot of crying though! :P

I fed a GIRAFFE!! YAAYYY!

I never liked plain milk, so mom tried all new things and she invented vanilla buhthashi which tasted like vanilla icecream! She added vanilla essence and color to the buhthashi! I still have it instead of milk.. becox I still hate plain milk! And its great! U shud try! More ice is better!

 more to come in another post! enuff for tunite! so enjoy! m off for now.. 

so all in all! life is good right now!

gonna miss ibu! :) cum bck soon brother! 

oki happy hols to all.. :)

 [pic from tumblr!! its just sooo cute!!)

a list

soo heres a post! 

about some things i wish were different in my life..

i know it isnt happening... 

but just remembered soo wud lyk to share wid u guys..

these are just some of them! not ALL! cox human wants are never ending right??

ok so here goes..!

I wish I got to grow up with my 6 months younger nephew!

because he is so awesome!
I wish my younger brother/sister was born!
because I always wanted a sibling and i know she was on her way but cudnt make it..
I wish I got better results.. :P
because I was expecting for higher grades.. :P
I wish me and mom lived alone.
because life is such a mess with all the people in the house right now..
I wish I earn for myself and could spend as much as I want ON FOOD!!
because I always crave for food and I want to eat!
I wish muuthi and I still lived next doors!
because I miss the stupid things we did together.
I wish I could fit ALL my stuff in my room. My teddy, my books, and everything!
because I miss everything and I have to keep all of them in another ISLAND right now!
I wish I could do a lot of shopping at once. 
because I love shopping!

 I wish ibu and I were siblings.

Like I said because he is AWESOME and it wud have been great if so!

[pic from somewhere out of my tumblr.. :)]

still on the pause!

yahhh.. soo my life again right!

same things guyss! its still on the pause...

how i met ur mother... and sleep! 

but im realli trying to get back on track with my sleep.. 

noo late nights!

oh and tonight went to a family gathering where i met a lot of relatives,

most of them i never knew even existed!! O_O

but all of them were realli nice and frndly!

it was fun and yummy food of cox..!!

soo had some quality time with dad after quiet a while..!!

now back home doing nothing but just writing some stuff.. 

and on my way to bedd!!

sooo this post is supposed to be shorter than the others i usually post.

BECOZ! this is my life blog and there is not very interesting stuff happening right now..

except the cliche'(s) happening in the house!

more updates about tht later!

soo for right now!

im gone... cya!

life goes on!

Soo.. nothing has changed much...

im duing pretty much the same things which ive been doing abt 3 months ago...

my sleeeppp!! argh.. i realli got to change my schedule...

i cnt sleep at night... even though im on bed and TRY to sleep i cnt go to sleep before 3.30 or 4 in the morning...

or if i cud actually fall asleep a bit early i wake up in the middle of the night...

this is happening since before ramazan this year!

and unfortunately as i am jobless and my classes are at night...

i dont have anything to do even if i wake up early.. so i end up on bed till afternoon! 

i starrvveee wen i wake up.. 

and ive got stupid cravings for junk food...

u will realise that even if u visit my tumblr. 

hehe..

ive got a sweet tooth now.. i want donuts, marshmallows and dont forget COKE!

even though i get bored most of the time... one thing i enjoy is watching how i met your mother!

yess... thats how i spend most of my time noww!!...

its awesome!

theres one more thing i do these days...

i take tiutions for my brother and his classmate...

two 9 year olds.. totally eats my head up!..

one thing i realised...

even though i dont have anything to do.. 

and even though im bored and im practically wasting a lot of my time duing NOTHING..

the world doesnt stop... 

everything is changing and i have to face everyday!!...

So... i have three words for all of u..

LIFE GOES ON!

and it doesnt care whether u are coming with it or not!

sooo just move on!

[pic from sumwhere of my tumblr..]