change!

so yah life changes! so much each day! and thus people change, it doesnt exclude me either.

well to begin with! i was working last month and i never thought i would leave it just after a month.! but i did! of cox i had my own reasons. and then there's my family life right??? well i was living with my mom and aunt and her kids and mom's kokko!

but then came some more people and it got bit crowded at home... i wanted some time with a little bit less pressure, so ive moved to dhonbe ge place for abt 2 or 3 months! but i miss mom and others at home! but it isnt bad over here either!

moving on! comes the people most close to you in life. well the way they treat you, the way they react to what you say, the way they behave around you, it all changes! even  the most unexpected! but hey, they've all got their own life huh? maybe its just me who has way too much expectations from people, when the truth is that everyone has their own issues to deal with. right?

i realli thought about this issue and i thought, even if any person is a close person to me, they have their own things to deal with. its not only me in their lives, but so many other things too. sooo i shudnt even expect too much time for me from them. but i still do think that just some time is important.! because there are some people from whom i want to feel that im important! like my very close frnds, family etc...

As for me, i agree i changed a lot after i finished school. the same thing happened to me. i had MANY MANY issues to deal with. so the time i spent with my frnds and people were very much less than earlier. but i tried to give time to everyone. and from now on i will try even more to spend time with my loved ones becox ive realised how much it hurts when you feel like you are just another person to your loved ones!

Now that i dont have much to do, im thinking of going jogging some days, not to lose weight (i dont have any weight to lose :P) but because i miss my sporty self. i miss the sporty me at school. i thought maybe ill be way more refreshed and stress free and ofcox healthy if i start doing some exercise. so yah! wish me luck. :)

welll and i thought ill try this format instead of the center alligned format this time... i thought this was looks better.! but lets see.! u guys recommend! [pic from my tumblr, it may not match with the post but i just like the pic.. xD] annndd! bye for now!

cya!

a page from my life!

How do you guys describe a normal life?? 

for a teenage girl..??

Heres wat i believe from wat ive seen and learned from different people and different friends of mine..

Of cox  a normal life is a happy family, 

good education, good job,a place to live, enough clothes and food!

RIGHT??

but hey?? ever thought about the difference of a TEENAGER?

ive seen a LOT of ppl who are suffering! but for me i have a very normal life!

complicated family issues, (seperated parents each one with their own issues)

extended family who gives a damn headache at times!

great friends but sumtimes we have our own lil problems!

VERY stressful money matters! (rent. bills blah blah)

Studies is gud!

getting hold of a good enough job! 

(im still waiting for tht government one!)

Wat ive been trying to do since i completed my o'levels was to continue my studies without doing A' lvls but with my own spending! 

as soon as my parents got seperated i wanted to take care of my mother! so first thing i did was to get a job!

started my studies and managed to pay the class fees, give something for rent, spend for me and moms personal stuff, and pay the internet bill. 

i managed to do that for quiet sometime but unfortunately i left my job due to some health issues and also some problems in the office! so i took a long break from work, but guess wat!

being jobless at 17yrs of age was more hectic than working! 

of cox i got a whole day to hangout at home! but it used to giv me headaches! 

i had soo much to deal with! i dont want to make dad spend on me so much! both mom and dad have done so much for me, and being an only child has given a lot! i thought its time for me to do something for them!

and thts y im searching for a well paid job and a place i cud afford to live alone with mom!

well well! there goes!

Some highlights about my life!

well, for me! this is my normal life!

how abt u guys? 

wats ur life like?? do u call this normal?? or do you have easier or HARDER lives??

[pic from tumblr]

sudden fun fact about me!
# mom says it was hard to walk on the road with me because i used to stop and read all the names of the houses and shops wen i walk along!

for right now! im off.. 

buh bye!

well!!

right!!! 

its beeen sooo longg..

i had the intention to update but wasnt able to do so.. 

since life has been keeping me so busy...

Anyways ive been trying to find a one room apartment for me and mom.. 

but havent got hold of a good enough one yet..

trying to shift by the end of this month...

trying our best... if u guys have any suggestions do let me knowww.. 

puweeezz..

anddd.. ive been oh so busy at work...

i have an awesome bunch of frnds there... 

it sure is pretty hectic at times... but then again getting to learn alot..

from the bad and from the good...

oh btw... there is just one more month to go... for my birth month to come.. :)

yayyy. .cant wait... cox im gonna turn 18.. but dheraves vey... ehaa avahah bodu vaathee.. :/

but whu cares.... here goes life!

i may post a birthday wish list to the blog sometime.

but my major want right now is a huge blackforest cake!!! yummyy!! 

my biggest inspiration these days is my tumblr.. :)

Anywaysss.. wats been up with you guys??

how is life treating you??

keep me updated...

even though i dont update my blog so often... i do visit u guys oki.. :)

its so great to have luvly bloggers like u.. :)

[pic from tumblr... i luv ferreros.... yummyy]

can remember a fun fact tonight.. sooo laterzz..

bye for now...

gnite..

here comes 2011

hei guys..

first things first!

wish u all a happy 2011.!!

moving on..

remember i mentioned about starting work..

yah soo the previous week has been a busy one..

ofyc home, home ofyc, and class! sooo i dont get much free time. have to do night shifts too.

BUT.. its all worth it...

like i said... it has been making my bored time very very very less..

i met a bunch of AWESOME frnds...

also had a chance to go on the ofyc trip but i skipped it..

BUT i miss Him a loooottt!!! 

but then again... 

it all happens for good right??

soo its ok... cox we do see each other..and i value each and every moment together..

on the occasion of the new year..

lets tell you about somethings im hoping to do..

*be a gud daughter..

*be a gud girlfriend..

*be a gud friend..

*be a gud sister..

*be a gud employee..
AND

*BE MYSELF

anyways..

sudden fun fact about me for tunite..

# mom says i used to eat raw onions hama ekkoh... 

when i think of it now.. i go YUCK!

i dont remember eating the like tht.. but oh gawd!! i was such a kid!

message before leaving..

this new year..

i want to love my family as much as i can..

try my best to be the best girlfriend ever..!!

annddd be an AWESOME friend..

my message for you guys is the same..

but just remember...

you dont need to change yourself..  just be YOU! cox thts wat makes you special.. :)

[pic from weheartit]

soo.. bye for now..

gnite.. 

and happy new year guys!!

its me.. again!

tadaa!!

finally... finally here i am after some time.

ok.. so what ive been mainly doing these days is watching movies and series and a very very very few internet!

and then i went for a job interview and was called for the second round..

went to the second round and tadaa ove been selected!

soo!! im gonna start working on this sunday!!

finally i will be very well occupied and less bored! insha allah!

otherwise in life, i have these new cravings for waffles and the "thihthimen corn". 

the spicy chicken one is goood!!

i actually crave for just anything.. ANYTHING!

missing muuthi loads and loads... shes gone off to lanka!

and also.. met ekko after a long timeee and had an awesome time...

and looking forward for a fun day again tomm with nathu and ekko.. :D

oh remember i told you i would extend the about me list... buuutt.. wen i try writing i actually dont remember all the facts at the same time.. soo i decided.. i wud include the facts in between my posts wen i remember...

soo.. sudden fun fact abt me..

# i get angry when i get too hungry.. i get soo angry i cud even cry and get mad at stupid stuff!!..

so u rather keep me well fed! :P

[pic from my tumblr... i dunno whose it is..]

sooo.. for now.. gudnight!

and have an awesome time...

will sure catch you guys latr.!!

realization!

Alrite. so here i am again..

tuday, during the afternoon, my aunt, uncle in law,

lil gurl cousin and the new born cousin flew off to the island..

of cox i didnt go because i DONT like the place at all.

but noww... i feel sooo lonely at home..

cox mom goes to work and im literally alone at home. 

but thanks to my guy he keeps me well accompanied thru internet, and phone.... 

Anyways

the loneliness made me realize something realli important,

it made me realize that ive been running away from some of the responsibilities i have,

that.. i am not having the courage to face the fact that its not only me who change,

and that no matter how old my parents get, even they change from day to day.

i forgot that they had their own life too, apart from me!

i realized that, now that i understand i have to giv them time to live their life.. cox all these days they've been living the life for me..

 soo ive started telling myself that i have my own responsibilities. 

firstly, keeping myself well organized, 

taking care of myself, and caring more about mom and dad. 

(not tht i dont care about them now... but i need to care for them more now)

its kinda a battle to give time to both of them equally since they are separated and live in two different places.

ive been planning on shifting with dad after some time... but who knows if we will live tomorrow right..? all i want to doo.. i got to start as soon as possible right?? 

soo ive decided im gonna start trying to give some more time to dad than i do now. 

and as for mom... im just giving her a chance to experience her lost teen life. 

i totally understand a teenagers situation, and for her its almost the same. 

So yah! go on mom... and experience the best days of life before its too late..

ill support you in watever decision you take!

oh well.. sooo all in all.. im just trying to improve..

be a better daughter... and a better friend...

cox i dont want to lose you guys... 

but for those of you who think i changed and im a bad person for that...

here me out!!

the truth is.. i grew up! 

i learnt tht you cant ALWAYS be happy... i accepted reality..

i have responsibilities...

it doesnt mean i hate any of you!... or that im foni.. or well.. i dont care if you think soo... 

but.. everyone changes right??

i guess this is the time for ME to finally stand up on my own feet!

you'll understand wen the right time for you comes... 

and at that time... i will have no problem with it cox ill totally understand!!

anywayyss! thnks you guys for listening to all the stuff i spill in here..!!!

have a gud nite.. :)

cheers

vulnerable

i havent been much of a blogger aye?

yah..!

something happi.. :)

my aunt delivered..! a boy.. means.. i got a new cousin!

so its kinda busy at home now...

but he sure is a cutie...

moving on!

i feel kinda lifeless these days...

i dunno wat is making me like this soo frequently!

i guess its the effect of jobless-ness!

its such a bore at home.. i realli dunt have stuff to do.. and i dont have anyone to accompany me!

yah so result is me being bored and mad and crazy and HUNGRY!

i just figured out that ive become very vulnerable...emotionally i mean!

everytime anyone say even a little thing, my heart breaks!

yah.. its annoying and sadd!! :/

 and i dunno how to let the feelings out!

i hve the same thing to say everytime...

repeating the same thing tooo frequently cud make it meaningless! thts wat i thot...

soo i just try to stay without talking abt these stuff...

but then again! this makes me the moody and unhappy person!.

argh! ive become such a mess!

[pic from my tumblr!]

anyways.. bye bye for now..

cya soon!