here comes 2011

hei guys..

first things first!

wish u all a happy 2011.!!

moving on..

remember i mentioned about starting work..

yah soo the previous week has been a busy one..

ofyc home, home ofyc, and class! sooo i dont get much free time. have to do night shifts too.

BUT.. its all worth it...

like i said... it has been making my bored time very very very less..

i met a bunch of AWESOME frnds...

also had a chance to go on the ofyc trip but i skipped it..

BUT i miss Him a loooottt!!! 

but then again... 

it all happens for good right??

soo its ok... cox we do see each other..and i value each and every moment together..

on the occasion of the new year..

lets tell you about somethings im hoping to do..

*be a gud daughter..

*be a gud girlfriend..

*be a gud friend..

*be a gud sister..

*be a gud employee..
AND

*BE MYSELF

anyways..

sudden fun fact about me for tunite..

# mom says i used to eat raw onions hama ekkoh... 

when i think of it now.. i go YUCK!

i dont remember eating the like tht.. but oh gawd!! i was such a kid!

message before leaving..

this new year..

i want to love my family as much as i can..

try my best to be the best girlfriend ever..!!

annddd be an AWESOME friend..

my message for you guys is the same..

but just remember...

you dont need to change yourself..  just be YOU! cox thts wat makes you special.. :)

[pic from weheartit]

soo.. bye for now..

gnite.. 

and happy new year guys!!

its me.. again!

tadaa!!

finally... finally here i am after some time.

ok.. so what ive been mainly doing these days is watching movies and series and a very very very few internet!

and then i went for a job interview and was called for the second round..

went to the second round and tadaa ove been selected!

soo!! im gonna start working on this sunday!!

finally i will be very well occupied and less bored! insha allah!

otherwise in life, i have these new cravings for waffles and the "thihthimen corn". 

the spicy chicken one is goood!!

i actually crave for just anything.. ANYTHING!

missing muuthi loads and loads... shes gone off to lanka!

and also.. met ekko after a long timeee and had an awesome time...

and looking forward for a fun day again tomm with nathu and ekko.. :D

oh remember i told you i would extend the about me list... buuutt.. wen i try writing i actually dont remember all the facts at the same time.. soo i decided.. i wud include the facts in between my posts wen i remember...

soo.. sudden fun fact abt me..

# i get angry when i get too hungry.. i get soo angry i cud even cry and get mad at stupid stuff!!..

so u rather keep me well fed! :P

[pic from my tumblr... i dunno whose it is..]

sooo.. for now.. gudnight!

and have an awesome time...

will sure catch you guys latr.!!

realization!

Alrite. so here i am again..

tuday, during the afternoon, my aunt, uncle in law,

lil gurl cousin and the new born cousin flew off to the island..

of cox i didnt go because i DONT like the place at all.

but noww... i feel sooo lonely at home..

cox mom goes to work and im literally alone at home. 

but thanks to my guy he keeps me well accompanied thru internet, and phone.... 

Anyways

the loneliness made me realize something realli important,

it made me realize that ive been running away from some of the responsibilities i have,

that.. i am not having the courage to face the fact that its not only me who change,

and that no matter how old my parents get, even they change from day to day.

i forgot that they had their own life too, apart from me!

i realized that, now that i understand i have to giv them time to live their life.. cox all these days they've been living the life for me..

 soo ive started telling myself that i have my own responsibilities. 

firstly, keeping myself well organized, 

taking care of myself, and caring more about mom and dad. 

(not tht i dont care about them now... but i need to care for them more now)

its kinda a battle to give time to both of them equally since they are separated and live in two different places.

ive been planning on shifting with dad after some time... but who knows if we will live tomorrow right..? all i want to doo.. i got to start as soon as possible right?? 

soo ive decided im gonna start trying to give some more time to dad than i do now. 

and as for mom... im just giving her a chance to experience her lost teen life. 

i totally understand a teenagers situation, and for her its almost the same. 

So yah! go on mom... and experience the best days of life before its too late..

ill support you in watever decision you take!

oh well.. sooo all in all.. im just trying to improve..

be a better daughter... and a better friend...

cox i dont want to lose you guys... 

but for those of you who think i changed and im a bad person for that...

here me out!!

the truth is.. i grew up! 

i learnt tht you cant ALWAYS be happy... i accepted reality..

i have responsibilities...

it doesnt mean i hate any of you!... or that im foni.. or well.. i dont care if you think soo... 

but.. everyone changes right??

i guess this is the time for ME to finally stand up on my own feet!

you'll understand wen the right time for you comes... 

and at that time... i will have no problem with it cox ill totally understand!!

anywayyss! thnks you guys for listening to all the stuff i spill in here..!!!

have a gud nite.. :)

cheers

vulnerable

i havent been much of a blogger aye?

yah..!

something happi.. :)

my aunt delivered..! a boy.. means.. i got a new cousin!

so its kinda busy at home now...

but he sure is a cutie...

moving on!

i feel kinda lifeless these days...

i dunno wat is making me like this soo frequently!

i guess its the effect of jobless-ness!

its such a bore at home.. i realli dunt have stuff to do.. and i dont have anyone to accompany me!

yah so result is me being bored and mad and crazy and HUNGRY!

i just figured out that ive become very vulnerable...emotionally i mean!

everytime anyone say even a little thing, my heart breaks!

yah.. its annoying and sadd!! :/

 and i dunno how to let the feelings out!

i hve the same thing to say everytime...

repeating the same thing tooo frequently cud make it meaningless! thts wat i thot...

soo i just try to stay without talking abt these stuff...

but then again! this makes me the moody and unhappy person!.

argh! ive become such a mess!

[pic from my tumblr!]

anyways.. bye bye for now..

cya soon!

the little aali! :)

its been sumtym I KNOW! 

i dunno the reason! ive been just a bit more attracted to tumblr these days!

anyways! here goes  post about my childhood! idea inspired by haiko.

I used to call “BOHTHAANI” for water!

I used to cry the whole night till morning!

I wanted to be a MONKEY when I grew up! (kiyavaigen molhuvegen adhi eii ves :P) a highly educated monkey! 

I called BOATHALHAA for boakibaa and cake! And apparently, one day there was my great grandmothers faathihaa at home, and while the kiyavaa meehun were having tea, I went up there and cried “mammaa dheboathalhaa dhee!” because I wanted both cake and boakibaa! hehe

When I was in kindergarten, I made jewellery from clay and actually put them INSIDE my ears pretending they were earrings!

I DIDN’T like to share! And one dayyy, mom bought a packet of sweets and gave to everyone and didn’t leave anything for me! That’s when I started liking to share! :P

When I used to say the shahaadhath before sleeping I refused to say Muhammad because it was my dad’s name! I used to tell mom that its bad to call dad’s name! id rather say bappa.. :P but mom made me understand! Hehe

I used to pray and make duas wishing for a sibling! (yeap! I wanted one sooo bad! I still doo)

When the prayer calls I used to start praying and my prayer would be over as soon as bangi is over! 

I used to say “BANKIYO” at banbukeyo!

When I first saw dad, I was scared of him and told grandma that mom had a scary beybe with us in the room!! :P (I saw dad after quite a while becox he was a boatu dhathuru kuraa meehaa back then)

ibu and I switched mothers sometimes! When maama was out and sometimes wen mom is out! :P so we kinda are siblings. Not born from same tummy but still! Same milk!  “yayyy”

when I went to a zoo, the only thing I was interested in was the MONKEYS! Not even the tigers and stuff! They were boring to me! :P (actually it turns out I still like monkeys! Like the rainbow monkey from KND, boots from dora and there are sum more too!)

I cried NOT to go on a horse ride! But I did go after a lot of crying though! :P

I fed a GIRAFFE!! YAAYYY!

I never liked plain milk, so mom tried all new things and she invented vanilla buhthashi which tasted like vanilla icecream! She added vanilla essence and color to the buhthashi! I still have it instead of milk.. becox I still hate plain milk! And its great! U shud try! More ice is better!

 more to come in another post! enuff for tunite! so enjoy! m off for now.. 

so all in all! life is good right now!

gonna miss ibu! :) cum bck soon brother! 

oki happy hols to all.. :)

 [pic from tumblr!! its just sooo cute!!)

a list

soo heres a post! 

about some things i wish were different in my life..

i know it isnt happening... 

but just remembered soo wud lyk to share wid u guys..

these are just some of them! not ALL! cox human wants are never ending right??

ok so here goes..!

I wish I got to grow up with my 6 months younger nephew!

because he is so awesome!
I wish my younger brother/sister was born!
because I always wanted a sibling and i know she was on her way but cudnt make it..
I wish I got better results.. :P
because I was expecting for higher grades.. :P
I wish me and mom lived alone.
because life is such a mess with all the people in the house right now..
I wish I earn for myself and could spend as much as I want ON FOOD!!
because I always crave for food and I want to eat!
I wish muuthi and I still lived next doors!
because I miss the stupid things we did together.
I wish I could fit ALL my stuff in my room. My teddy, my books, and everything!
because I miss everything and I have to keep all of them in another ISLAND right now!
I wish I could do a lot of shopping at once. 
because I love shopping!

 I wish ibu and I were siblings.

Like I said because he is AWESOME and it wud have been great if so!

[pic from somewhere out of my tumblr.. :)]

still on the pause!

yahhh.. soo my life again right!

same things guyss! its still on the pause...

how i met ur mother... and sleep! 

but im realli trying to get back on track with my sleep.. 

noo late nights!

oh and tonight went to a family gathering where i met a lot of relatives,

most of them i never knew even existed!! O_O

but all of them were realli nice and frndly!

it was fun and yummy food of cox..!!

soo had some quality time with dad after quiet a while..!!

now back home doing nothing but just writing some stuff.. 

and on my way to bedd!!

sooo this post is supposed to be shorter than the others i usually post.

BECOZ! this is my life blog and there is not very interesting stuff happening right now..

except the cliche'(s) happening in the house!

more updates about tht later!

soo for right now!

im gone... cya!

life goes on!

Soo.. nothing has changed much...

im duing pretty much the same things which ive been doing abt 3 months ago...

my sleeeppp!! argh.. i realli got to change my schedule...

i cnt sleep at night... even though im on bed and TRY to sleep i cnt go to sleep before 3.30 or 4 in the morning...

or if i cud actually fall asleep a bit early i wake up in the middle of the night...

this is happening since before ramazan this year!

and unfortunately as i am jobless and my classes are at night...

i dont have anything to do even if i wake up early.. so i end up on bed till afternoon! 

i starrvveee wen i wake up.. 

and ive got stupid cravings for junk food...

u will realise that even if u visit my tumblr. 

hehe..

ive got a sweet tooth now.. i want donuts, marshmallows and dont forget COKE!

even though i get bored most of the time... one thing i enjoy is watching how i met your mother!

yess... thats how i spend most of my time noww!!...

its awesome!

theres one more thing i do these days...

i take tiutions for my brother and his classmate...

two 9 year olds.. totally eats my head up!..

one thing i realised...

even though i dont have anything to do.. 

and even though im bored and im practically wasting a lot of my time duing NOTHING..

the world doesnt stop... 

everything is changing and i have to face everyday!!...

So... i have three words for all of u..

LIFE GOES ON!

and it doesnt care whether u are coming with it or not!

sooo just move on!

[pic from sumwhere of my tumblr..]

16th and 17th

So here i am again! 

there was noooo news from the ofyc thingy... 

bro told me there were above 100 applications.. soo no idea!

16th was our anniversary.. 1 year 1 month.. soo we celebrated a bit with a ferero chocolate drink.. luv u babe.. <3

The big thing that happened was moms b day...  It was 17th...

on 16th ge night, me ibu faizan and xef bought everything we need for a party...

balloons, cake, snow, party popper, chickn and parata and all other stuph...

hmm soo wen mom finished the shop at 11 me and xef went to pick her up..

and we went to the gaadiyaa thah kairi ah.. and there was this show and eythi balan thibefa dhen went to have cotton candy and jugo!.

after that on the way home.. we tried to pop the party popper but unfortunately faizan broke it and plan flop.... 

dhen 1 ves vanikoh geah dhevunee... dhiya iru paaaarrrrttyyyyyyy!!!! yayyyy.. she was very happi!

dhen cake falhaafa.. kaifa... snow fulhi mulhi thanashaa gayashaa angayashaa jahaafa! kukulhu kaigen kulhi vegen moyavegen..

hehehe..

and then xef and faizan left..

It was all mom ge bf ge plan soo special thanks to him.. :)

anddd laterrrr again on 17 ge night...

i bought tulips for mom and shop nimunu gadeega sent it to her...

she was EXtremelyyy happi!!..

so was i..

soo happi birthday mommmy!..

tht was all abt her b day!

dhen aneh hen maa bodu kameh nuvey.,.

will update u abt anything... :)

oh btw...!!

we are celebrating furaavaru's 3rd anniversary.. dunt forget to visit

http://furaavaruonline.com

 play games and win gifts.. :) 

enjoy!

[pic from my tumblr]

hei.. =)

oops! its been sumtym right!

oh welll... during these days.. so much has happened...

actualli i finishd my first semester exams... 

realli hoping they wud come out fine.. :)

ill be getting the results at somewhere arnd february or end of jan!

watvr.. just cnt wait to see them...

and theennnnn!!!

im trying to write this all of a sudden so all the stuph arent comin to mind.

but will update ltr if i miss anything... 

well... 

there were very very fun and memorable days tooo...

i had fun with sum of my gurlfwendss... went to shopping with them... had sum serious time with them too..

they are all soo special and i miss all of my frnds a lot..

about family!

well... better not talk abt it!

it havnt been this complicated ever...! 

the rent is increasing of this place and its getting less affordable..

sooo sis and ppl hav decided to shift to island which i dont like and i dont want to and i  cnt shift!

it has been the island which i hate the mosttt...

and i dont want to go becox i hate the place and the ppl there are such monsters... 

i know im not supposed to say this.. but cnt help cox i hvnt met a lot of nice ppl whu grew up there.

and i cant becox im studying. 

and i am so not gud at getting along with tht side of my family becox of lot of stuph...

well yah damnnn!!

now i hv two choices... 

either to shift with my dad...

or to find a place to liv with mom....

which means i have to get a job.. SOON

oh tht reminds me... ive applied for a job tuday! 

realli hope i get it...

of cox ill tell u guys abt how it goes in another post!

so lets just stop right here...

and wait for another post right??

cox this is getting very family complicated.. and its making me think!

sooo... for right now..

im outta here..!!!

GOOD NIGHT!


[pic from deviant art ge i dunno who]

u never see a rainbow without a bit of rain!

These two days were kind of frustrating..

cox i got some news which wasnt easy to hear, and so far the most saddest news ive had!

and so, that whole day went kind of dizzy!

was thinking tooo much and stressy!

and then, tuday again i was bored the whole day, and during the evening sum frnds and him dropped by!

we were chatting for a while and then went out for jugo!

fini fini Jugo on a fini fini night! and then headed shopping! four of us! 

was fun... with two very annoying guys while shopping! (maybe cox they dont like shopping)

but we enjoyed.. :D  im sure they did too..!!

soo my frnd bought a handbag for herself.  and i bought myself a biooootiful faivaan!

and all then all of us bought some cosmetics we needed!..

So after coming back home me him a frnd and my kokko played cards for a while and got hungry!!

so.. we decided that the on who lost would giv us dinner..!! and we begged our frnd and got food!!! haha..

So we had a good meal and they left at about 12.30.

Thats when i got online and met somebody from my past scul! 

we had a deal on the website and i got all excited and cant wait for it to be edited and launched soon.!!

after that just kept on tumbling and tumbling in tumblr. 

oh! and is it only me or is facebook really having problems???

plus i think there is a connection prob.. the net is damn sloww!! maybe becox of the rain..

well as i told you earlier rain makes me miss him..

right now.. its very very cold..

and m off to sleep!!

guess i need some rest after all this excitement.!

i know it may not have been tht exciting... but i dunno why i feel soo excited and happy!!!

well.. its a good thing right.. =] 

so i learnt that u dont get happiness before u get a bit of pain..!!

soo.. u dont see a rainbow without a lil rain!

[pic sumwhere out of my tumblr]

ok soo noww.. 

buh bye and catch ya laters..

A lil life update!

Rainy days are here again!!

Sometimes i dont like the rain because a lot of plans are cancelled..

like last friday, i was planning to hang out with my frnds. but cudnt because of the rain.. :/

too baddd!!

But realli, 

rain just reminds me of HIM!

No matter how little it rains.. or how hard it rains.. 

i just miss him wen it rains.. infact a lot of people do miss their partner!!

oh welll... tonight while im writing the post.. its very cold, and raining outside..

which means.. i miss him even right now!

Let me giv u a life update!

i am suffering from diarrohea!

yes the vommiting!

argh it suxx...

loads of meds..

but there isnt much of an improvement yet... hmph..

hope it gets better soon..

And nooowwww!!..

m off to write sum stuph for furaavaru..

its cumin bck tomm after ramadan... 

do visit and see sum of my works and others works too..!! :P

FuraavaruOnline

Well thts all for right now..
[oh and pic by widjita from DA]

Sooo gnite..

ciao..

<3 <3

may i have some space?? please?

When i was just a little girl i wanted to grow up.. and be a grown up.

but when i finally started to grow up, i didnt want to be an adult.

until recently, i wanted to grow up..

and pretty soon. 

so that i could finally have my own space,

because until now, ive been waiting till i get my own room, 

but now ive stopped dreaming about that.

because i cant see it happening anytime soon unless i get a very own space on my own, 

for me and mom! 

OR

After sum years later get married??

but no! im talking about earlier than that!

 i dont mind living together with people,  but i need some space;

where i could do my work easily.

where i could actually bring over my friends and i wont feel uncomfortable, thinking whether someone is bothered.

Also, so that i could make my own food and play music as loud as i want,

 So that i could watch tv or movies for as long as i want,

So that i could have space to keep my own stuff. 

i am 17! dunt u guys agree that i owe just a little bit of privacy?? 

hmph... i just wish it would happen soon... 

i could live here.. i dont want to complain... but its just a little bit hard to adapt wen it comes to studies and homework..!!

i miss my old home and the people ive been living with...

i love them all!! they were just my own family!

PS. today i turned 18yrs meelaadhee gothun.. tehe.. xD

[pic from my tumblr ge konmes hisaabeh!!]

changed!

My life is a lot different like i said in the previous post.

Just so all of u out there knows.

its not only me,

we've changed..all of us has,

But face it cox it was different sumtyms back, 

i know we talked about never to leave each others side or contacts.

its not that any of us have forgotten the friends, but its just that there is a time for everyone, when you have to finally become a bit more responsible. 

and i guess this is the time for me to be so. 

considering my parents, our lyf and my dreams.

It was the funniest and the most hectic times ever in life, and it wont ever come back.

wen we were in scul, met each other everyday,

But now, we've all got our own lives to focus on. 

some of us not so serious about life, 

but me!! i am serious, cox this is what ive been living for the whole of my life.

i wanted to study, i had and i still have my very huge dreams.

a new life, new people, new love.. and this time its all true and very seriously important!

just remember, nothing in this world is permanent.

nothing lasts forever..

becox even this world has an end!

everything change, sum for the better, some the worse!

 but as long as the world is here. ill have you in my heart!
cox im never letting go off any beautiful things that happened in my life..

even though a few unnecessary things are out of my mind..!

just want all of my friends to know that i love all of u.. <3

i will never forget u guys!! ever!
it was a huge chapter of life and a chapter where i learned so much.

all of u play a huge role in making my life bright. 

[pic sumwhere from deviantart]

ekkala litul aali!!

h

pic taken by ekko.. :)

OH hey there guys! 

im backkk!! 

after a looong time.. yup i know! with a new blog.. :)

i never quit blogging...

i was just on a lil break!

anyways.. now that im back.. 

there's a lot to catch up on...

I shifted to male' after quiet sum time in hulhumale'.

Male is great!Well sumtyms hulhumale' is better.. 

I did go to a job after finishing my o'levels. but ive quit now.

now im doing sum more studies...

(tht was a lil brief abt the boring old life)

Now this is kind of a new chapter of my life. 

A lot of new experiences... 

And the most wonderful moments of life.

Everything is changed...

Maybe me too.. 

A lot about me actualli.. 

Thats the reason y the other blog is no more. 

So here i am..

the bubbly new me.. 

with a bubbly new blog.

on this special and lovely date.

(16.08.2010)

[happi 11 month anniversary luv]

on an all time fav rainy night.. :)

anyways... just wanted to tell u guys tht i am back.. 

annnddd!! 

Ramadan Kareem bloggers!

missd u all.. :)

gnite. 

xoxo